I need a sex party regularly. It’s almost a survival issue. If I didn’t go, I wouldn’t get stroked much in my life. I am so busy I don’t date. Sometimes I’m just looking for three loving men who’ll take some time with me, not some asshole who immediately wants to get off and I’m supposed to jack him off. Sometimes people just want to rub my back and that’s nice, versus the asshole who is trying to put his cock down my throat.
The safe-sex jack-off parties are really interesting. There are always many more men than women. It’s a voyeuristic trip, so if you want to be an exhibitionist, that’s the place! I’m very adventuresome. I like jack-off. It’s taken a long time to accept that I like to masturbate. I sometimes like to masturbate with other people.
I might be sitting there by myself and then five guys might come up and sit next to me, stare at me, sit very close and jack off to me. Sometimes, if I’m in the mood, I act like I’m one of the boys. There might be eight guys sitting there jacking off and I just sit down next to them and say, “I’m here to jack-off, I don’t want any of you touching me.” If they start to slide over and touch me, I just say, “No thanks.” I am so cool. I know exactly how to say, “Don’t touch me,” but not offend. So I just sit there and very calmly jack off with them.
I think of myself as sensually dominant, when I’m dominant. I like to tie a man up and take a riding crop and spank his balls and his cock. Talk dirty to him and force him to talk dirty back to me. Or have him down on his knees and spread my cunt over him. Talk dirty to him, be the mistress and force him to jack off, then lick my cunt. Something like that.
What turns me on? Someone talking dirty, and it’s really important that they have it in their voice, and that they are real sensitive with their hands. They can be very gentle and loving one minute and then contrast it. One minute spanking me real hard and the next touching me incredibly gently. Running things across my tits-like a hairbrushso that there are varying sensations. I love for people to be physical with me. I don’t know how to explain it. I’m not some cute little dainty doll. It’s really okay if you want to explore my body. Pick me up, spank my ass, find out how hard I can take it, or how gentle. My body’s there to explore and I give permission. I’ve had a fair amount of sex and you’re not going to scare me however you touch my body, because I’ll sure as hell tell you to be gentle or, “Don’t touch at all, you’re crossing my barriers,” if I need to.
When I was doing phone sex, I totally adored being a dominatrix. I liked the anonymous contact with people all over the country. I didn’t know who I was talking to, and it was wonderful to talk to some farmer who had no way to talk to anybody about S&M and get off. He could do his trip, and I could do mine.
He might say, “I want a dominatrix and I want her to be very gentle and I want cock and ball torture and I want ass play and enemas” and so on. A fantasy S&M shopping list. He’d be asking for somebody to deliver that and I’d try to do it.
Or it’s a baby fetish and he’s got diapers on and he’s wanting me to talk all about his diapers and wetting himself and that trip. It’s pretty psychological. I have to enter that person’s head space from the very vague outline he tells me, and try to get into his turn-on. Then I start playing the role and I may change my voice and he will feed it back to me. He’ll get in the role and be the baby or the submissive man. If I’m not doing it right, he’ll feed me lines: “No, no, you’re doing it too hard,” or “Too soft,” or whatever. So it’s interesting and pretty sophisticated.
from an interview with Janet